Can’t wait to get old
Let’s think for a minute about the old age. Yes yes, I know that it is the most dreadful thing for our generation. All the cosmetics, plastic surgeries etc were created and are heavily used to prevent old age from visiting. Still, it is the only thing that is certain for every single one of us. Everyone will get old. Except if we die young. Which is also not a very comforting thought
My biggest fear of becoming old was always that my body will not be able to do things that my mind will still want to do…I still feel powerless when I think “how will it feel like when I will not be able to ride anymore? Or travel? Or be independent…” I will be trapped by my own body that is used to be the greatest instrument. And that is terrifying.
Last week I had quite a confrontation with my own fears
Last week I had quite a confrontation with my own fears. The photo project I was working with included a lot of pictures of elderly people in sports. I was shooting while they were doing different kinds of sports and activities. And you know what? In the beginning, I was bored. But more activities I photographed, more I got excited. Some of these people were more flexible, strong and resilient than me.
I am not saying that I am not afraid to get old anymore. I think that this thought will keep disturbing me no matter what. But somehow I got to think that there are so many things to do and to learn when my physical state will change. Maybe I will not be able to get into cold water or jump with the kite anymore. But I want to learn to play the cello. I want to learn to dance tango. Pff! Can’t wait to get old